If God comes roll-calling on the internet, and the way it is going, She/He certainly may, I must not be absent. And therefore, this blog is my proxy herein.

Do let me know, if you want me to stop doing this to the human-kind (/unkind). Or, rarer still, if you want me to do more of the same.

(And ah, while you are here, do feed the fish. They like mouse pointers.)

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

(Please watch it in HD. Just make sure the HD written at the bottom of the video is turned blue, and if it's not, click on it.)

Ludo (Film) from Arkesh Ajay on Vimeo.

LUDO

Haunted by the emptiness of her life, a woman decides to die, but has to wait for 'Beck' before she can kill herself. Her husband, and her friend encourage her to commit suicide because of their own selfish interests. As they wait for Beck, the door-bell rings, and in comes a tramp. Is he Beck? And, will the woman kill herself? Who will win this game of Ludo that her life begins to resemble?
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Disclaimer: Some music used in the film is sourced from other Hindi films ("Black Friday", and "Barfi!"). The intent of this film and all parts thereof is purely non-commercial, and academic.
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Written & Directed by Arkesh Ajay
Cast (in order of appearance): Mansi Multani, Sukant Goel, Gagan Riar, Naveen Kasturia
DOP: Satyanshu Singh, Ashwyn Warrier
Sound Design: Kumar Devanshu
Editing: Manish Kishore, Yogesh, Priyadarshi Siddharth 

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Cinema

If cinema entertains you, that's your problem.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Book Review | Undemocratic impulse : Broken Republic (Arundhati Roy)


ARKESH AJAY | September 4, 2011, New Delhi

(This book review appeared in the print edition issue dated September 4, 2011, of The Sunday Indian magazine)


Arundhati Roy
Penguin (Imprint: Hamish Hamilton)
Edition: Hardcover
ISBN: 9780670085699
Pages: 232
Price: 499

Sixty-four years after it has ended, India needs to understand the definition of imperialism the most now. It may be in the irony of things, but often every battle faces the danger of leading its people into the very oppression it fights against. Maybe, and maybe I don’t need to temper my statement with a “may”, India already has landed there- the very imperialism it fought to be free from.

Let’s, for once, think of the tribal region lying at the trijunction of Chhattisgarh, Jharkhand & Orissa. They are rebelling, and are being quieted by military might. Isn’t imperialism exactly this- a policy of extending an entity's power and influence over another through diplomacy or military force?

But you may say, India is a singular entity, and hence the argument doesn’t hold true. I would then ask- what makes a nation? Is the will of the governed not significant? Isn’t India a republic? And if it deviates from this line, doesn’t it lead itself to become a “broken republic”, as is also the name of the new book by Arundhati Roy, a collection of the three sharp essays, about the war “in the very heart of the country”- between the so-called Naxals, and the ‘state of India’. Between a government, and its own people. And not just any people, it’s very poorest ones. And as one visits this chapter of present India, and reads through Roy’s evocative writings, there is one question which often raises its head- ‘What makes these tribals pick up guns against an obviously much stronger government’?

What emerges from her investigation is the story of how corporate greed, justified in the sweep of the celebrated brush of 9% GDP growth, is about to turn India into an organism trying to “eat its own limbs”, as “those limbs refuse to be eaten”. In order to achieve this growth, the fruits of which never will reach the people who will be sacrificed for it, the government needs the tribals to move off their mineral-rich lands. Since they won’t, for they know not where else to go, there is a need to use military might. And however blind our democracy may become, it still will hear the sounds of these bullets. So emerges the need to create an ‘enemy’. The “Maoist menace” is that enemy, magnified to monstrous proportions in order to justify use of brute force in these jungles, against the nation’s poorest citizens.

Roy makes compelling arguments, especially when she quotes from the current home minister’s speech at Harvard, about how the government, in its hurry to allow “market forces” to mine resources “quickly and efficiently” has vandalized the constitution. The minister almost sounds disappointment at how “democracy” adds to the “challenge of development”, where he is “obliged” to provide “right compensation, rehabilitation and resettlement”.

Roy goes on to wonder as to why are these villagers sympathetic to the Maoists? The answer, though, is simple. For so many years the Indian state has exploited resources traditionally belonging to these tribes, and turned a blind eye to their welfare. No relationship based on only one party taking from it can last long. And so when PWG walks into these forests with a sympathetic ear, compared to the forest department’s pitiless officials, they immediately win a place in the hearts of the natives, become a part of them. “Guerillas being the fish and the people being the water they swim in”, as Mao put it.

Roy also examines the Maoist ideology, and its failings too. She wonders about the possibility of the revolution turning into an uncontrolled act of violence, far from the ideology it began with, especially in the unlikely outcome of its meeting success in its present endeavor. While exploring this, she offers hints into what could be the basis of a solution: “If we lived in a society with a genuinely democratic impulse, one in which ordinary people felt they could at least hope for justice, then the Maoists would only be a small, marginalized group of militants with very little popular appeal.”

And this is where the book’s greatest strength lies- in the balance of the debate Roy undertakes. Between a government which is dangerously in sway of “corporate fundamentalists”, and Naxals with a history of often-directionless violence, are millions of India’s poorest villagers, almost constantly staring down the barrel of someone’s gun. It is then only natural that they feel like aliens in their own country, and want the state to just leave them alone.

Bhagat Singh had once said, “...the state of war…shall exist so long as the Indian toiling masses and the natural resources are being exploited by a handful of parasites. They may be...purely Indian”. If we agree with the celebrated revolutionary here, we’ve to also agree that India, then, has a full scale war going on its very heart, and it’s easy to spot the villain.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Whose revolution is it anyway?


Once upon a time there was a little boy, who wanted his father to buy him a bicycle. The father hadn’t been obliging, and seemed to be in no mood to do so either. The reason the older man provided was simple- you don’t need one, everywhere you got to go, you can go on foot, and reach on time. When everything failed, the child decided to beat the old man at his own game- the game of reasoning. He decidedly began to get late for his school. After a while, the teachers complained to his father, and also gave him an advice- why don’t you get your child a bicycle? A man of logic, he couldn’t debate it, and went ahead and bought the bicycle for his son.

Moral of the story: when you don’t have an enemy to justify your actions (line-of-approach), create one.

One of the tragedies India as a country witnesses today, is in fact being celebrated as its success- the immense power wielded by its middle class. It is, however, celebrated entirely by the middle class itself. This middle class is largely Hindu, upper-caste, a fact most of the political discourse wants to sweep under that wonderful word- coincidence. And it is indeed a coincidence, as much as an apple falling to the ground is. Gravitation is but a mere conspiracy a communist called Newton created.

And this middle class wants control. Of everything- resources, means of production, land, capital, media, politics, sports, education. And absolute control at that. You name it, and before you pronounce the last syllable, they already want to control it.

Anyone who would resist this is anti-national, who doesn’t want “India do take its rightful place in the comity of nations”. After all, it is the middle class which fills the back offices of MNCs from the west. And it is these back offices which have made us the darlings of the world. And how we love to be liked by the west is not even required to be elaborated upon. (Anything which stops you from being this darling is, again, anti-national). It is the middle-class which is that multi-million-dollar market everyone and their aunts are chasing all the way from foreign, either directly or indirectly (in some cases through 100% investments, and in some a mere 50). So it is this middle-class which pays for their share-holders’ yachts, and hence it is only they who matter. To the US, or to the IMF, and by extension to our Prime Minister (who, I have a suspicion, realizes the immense power speaking in a low inaudible voice has of giving the impression that the speaker in an incredibly nice guy). And since it is only the middle-class which matters, it is only they who become “India” for everyone’s for-all-I-care concerns. And so God help you, if you have one bone against the middle-class, you are picking a fight against “India”, and therefore surely, you are an anti-national. Down with you! (You as well may now grow a beard, roam the jungles of Chhattisgarh trying to provide medicine for the tribals there, and call yourself a communist- a term I am sure most of the people who oppose, do not know the meaning of).

So now that we have established to everyone’s delight that the middle class is what India is and it is just a coincidence that the middle-class is largely upper-caste Hindu, let’s move on to take our rightful place in the global comity.

But wait, there’s this one thing. When we got freedom, we decided to call ourselves a welfare state, and a socialist one too (imagine!), and also decreed that individuals will not control the means of production. Or in other words, we won’t become capitalists. Who does these things? But our fore-fathers did. And now we must free ourselves from all that, red-tapism et al. We must assign corporations the selfless task of building the nation, based on the premise of limited greed & the nature of money to trickle-down. How we do it, well, we’ll devise something along the way.

But the bigger trouble is this legacy of corruption. It is the practice whereby the public sector and the politicians make-disappear small or large sums of money, in order to do/not do certain duties. Let’s not confuse it with the practice of kick-backs, fudging of balance sheets, sponsoring Hong Kong trips for complying bureaucrats (the bureaucrat, however, becomes corrupt here by virtue of going on this trip), and other such corporate endeavours taken in obvious national interest (expressed often through the logic of GDP). Noteworthy also is the differentiation that needs to be made here, between “corruption”, and offering token money to get a task done through government officials. In effect, using money as enticement to get a favour done is not corruption, while agreeing to take this money clearly is.

So about this legacy, we obviously need to get rid of it. And since the middle class only unwillingly suffers because of it, with never benefitting from it, they are all up in a united battle against it. Mostly, the ones who operate businesses, or work in businesses operated by others, or find this the way everything should operate (namely, someone’s private business, pun debatable) - or the capitalists. Since, their being Hindu upper class was a coincidence, even being a capitalist, who wants the state to lay its hands off, also is.

Since, we have seen 1991, and the fable of how a messiah from the IMF created an instant-financial-policy to save the nation from doomsday, we don’t challenge miracles. Hence, when a diminutive man tells us it’s time for another one, we instantly rise in a Mexican wave of cheers, resembling the one seen during the cricket world cup final concluded just a day before his movement began. (Another coincidence, for who expected India to reach the final, let alone win and thus create a spirit of nationalism, for the afore-mentioned man’s movement to draw upon). And when the man decides to draw his sword a second time, just a day after the Independence Day, we are now in serious struggle mode. (It would be a rather obvious coincidence, since everyone knows as to how the middle class gets its annual patriotic fever precisely on the 15th of August every year, sometime about 11 am in the morning, when, it being a holiday, he/she wakes up late to switch on the TV bleating about how we as a nation have made giant strides in the last few decades, through the compulsory visuals of the army, stock exchange, missiles, the Red Fort- for a sense of history, cricket, and a recent addition of badminton/boxing).

On television these days, it is this ‘struggle for second independence’ we are witnessing. The fact that most of the media houses are owned by upper-caste Hindu businessmen is, again, just a coincidence.

And the instant-balm we are fighting for this time around is an instrument called the Jan Lokpal, or the Ombudsman. Known to cure chronic corruption in government departments, and politicians. This is all the information most of us have, and frankly care for. For ideologies are something we as a nation of youths, don’t have the time, patience, or the need of. Nothing that cannot be fitted into 140 characters is worth wasting time over.

There are a number of sources, and forums out there discussing (interestingly, in ‘.ppt’ format) this bill, its facets, and how it has the obvious potential of turning into a Frankenstein's monster. So let us dwell over something else. A question, to be particular.

After this second independence comes, thanks to this bill, will it achieve what the first failed to- will it put a chapatti on the plate of that starving family in Bastar? If the answer is yes, pass me the now-suddenly-in-fashion-after-years-of-decadence Gandhi topi, and tell me the way to the nearest fast-in-the-comfort-of-your-own-town joint. And if the answer is, ‘it will trickle down’, please don’t mind while I think of you as an ignorant fool. When it did not trickle down in 60 or so years, how will it do so now?

For if “it will trickle down”, this movement is just a right wing activist making political noise for ideological gains over the current ruling party, maybe for larger people sitting behind the scenes. There is then, no progress or deliverance that is going to come through this. The large majority of this country is the peasant or the proletariat class. This bill, then, has nothing for them. But then, look at me, I forget so conveniently who “India” is- the middle class.

The class who believes that corruption is a government-bureaucrat-politician phenomenon, only. The class who still thinks the corporations only acted under the compulsions of this corrupt system, when they tried to get the minister of their choice, a certain Mr Raja, to the telecom portfolio, as heard in the Radia-tapes. Now when post his appointment, Mr Raja played ball, and choreographed a massive 2G scam, it is only he who is to be held as corrupt, and not the corporations. In fact it will be very well if these corporations are assigned a few new mines in Bastar, where those tribal squatters are living for centuries now. In fact, such may be an outcome of this protest- greater control to the corporates.

Since the politicians are corrupt, and the government systems are beyond repair, let us give greater autonomy to the corporates. It is then little surprise that the corporates are quite vocal about their support to this entire movement.

Let’s then also ponder a moment about something related. Which political party do the majority of corporates (big or small) owe their allegiance to? Is it then not an interesting coincidence that the BJP is very vocally in support of this ‘movement’? And isn’t it a delight to watch them talk of “democratic values”, especially on the morning Mr Hazare was arrested by Delhi Police on the behest of the government (a move which allegedly made the king-in-waiting come out of his slumber, and dress as the knight in shining armour)? This is a party in favour of cutting short all civil liberties and even human dignity, in the name of draconian anti-terror laws. This is a party responsible for Gujarat riots, the state-sponsored pogrom (which, I am sure, killed Muslims in a very democratic fashion).

This then makes BJP the biggest gainer from all this mayhem. I’d suggest, let’s not draw conclusions right now.

Where does all this leave the Congress party? Onto the opposition benches, many may argue (after the next elections, that is). And again, I’d say, let’s not draw conclusions right now.

The congress government is headed by the original miracle worker, from the IMF- the Mecca for all corporates. He is ably assisted by an ex-corporate lawyer, who has stood with the business houses on many occasions through his life. These two are to greater corporate control of national resources, what water is to ice. They will surely find an opportunity to push for more of the same, and keep with them the distinction of being corporate friendly (and hence friendly to ‘development’- one of the Indian synonyms for corporate).

Where does that leave us? Who is fighting against whom? But then, aren’t the most interesting battles those, where you can’t tell the good guys from the bad? Where the enemy-lines are blurred, often invisible?

In fact, this is where this country’s biggest challenge, actually lies-identifying ideological corruption in political life, and curing it. Disappointingly, no one seems interested in fighting for it.

And till that doesn’t happen, the true voice of this country’s real sufferers- the workers and the farmers, shall find no resonance in the corridors that matter. (Their so called representatives, the Left is, well, left somewhere caught up in its own who-to-appease battles). The middle class can continue to consume the definition of India entirely, as it does with the country’s resources.

And we can continue to fight these well-choreographed stage-fights against cosmetically enhanced and ideologically morphed enemies. The middle class can continue to have its cathartic ‘revolution’, get purged of her/his sense of “not giving back to the society”, and then go back to chasing that Indianised American dream.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

If I were you, I'd save some time

If I were you
I'd jump from a roof
Twist an ankle
Walk like a spoof

If I were you
I'd paint it blue
Seal its cracks
With a bottle of glue

If I were you
I'd keep up the night
Cloak my soul
Pick up a fight

If I were you
(I'd) sleep through the day
'cept the evening
When I'd drink & pray

If I were you
(I) wouldn't know what I wrote
Tear this out
Make a paper boat

If I were you
I wouldn't write this rhyme
Stare at the mirror
And save some time.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Book Review: Home Boy

Tragedy of being a Pakistani

ARKESH AJAY | New Delhi, June 6, 2011 12:23

(This book review appeared in The Sunday Indian magazine)
Author: H M Naqvi
Publisher: Harper Collins
Language: English
Binding: Paperback
Pages: 288
ISBN-10: 0307409102
ISBN-13: 978-0307409102

One of the most prominent questions which would visit the reader while reading this author is a question reverberating across the literary universe – why are so many Pakistanis producing so much good work in English literature with such consistent regularity. The answer may be simplified to – it’s a country in political and social gyre. Or may be attempted to be found through the two hundred and sixteen pages of “Home Boy”.

It’s a tale of three electric Pakistani men in America at the most critical juncture of the latter’s modern history; but it’s much more than just that. It is also an investigation into the socio-cultural shift that this country, so proud of its “liberty”, faced in a post 9-11 world. It is also a Huckleberry Finn to Chuck, its narrator, a bildungsroman whereby he matures to realize what and how his world is, and where “home” truly is. It is a lot more than even these, as the reader would surely find out, but most significantly it is a chronicle of the changed Muslim identity in a changed America, and how inhumane it all is.

Shehzad, or the aforementioned Chuck, is an immigrant into America (education-job routine, except that his life surely is not that- routine), leaving behind a widowed mother in Karachi. He begins by taking us through the free-living, coke-snorting, carousing, and most importantly doing it all like an American, way of living that he and his two friends AC (Ali Chaudry) and Jimbo (Jamshed) are ensconced in. All three men – characters of immense warmth, created with definitely some degree of biography into them – are true New Yorkers, at ease with the city, its geography, its entire being. The way Chuck visits his city in words is how one can only visit a lover’s body in one’s most private thoughts; and every time the reader comes across him talking about it, it is all too apparent that this is where his “home” is, where he believes he belongs to.

AC, a maverick academic who sometimes works on his doctorate and sometimes teaches at Bronx to get by, is a polymath. A certain roguishness to his character lends further to his unhinged charm, and he is quite a hit with everybody, especially the women. Jimbo, a Pushtun deejay, is a bona fide American, born in New Jersey, where his father the “old man Khan” still lives with his sister, the pretty “Amo”. He speaks the Americana, has a proper American girlfriend, and is quite the part as the free-floating American youth. Our narrator too has, over the few years by the calendar that he has spent in America, become a true blue New Yorker, with all its paraphernalia. And then one fine morning, two planes ram into a couple of buildings that were quite the symbols of America’s free market economy that makes it what it is, and everything changes.

It begins as much a tragedy to them as to other Americans. It was a criminal act, by some Saudi terrorists, and our three protagonists suffered it seemingly from the outside, except for the fact that Chuck’s previous office, from where he was fired during recession, was in one of the towers that went down. But then as American paranoia settled in, and prejudice took centre-stage, all things brown and Muslim were painted by the same brush. And suddenly, they found themselves across the fence, on the other side as America, branded terrorists even before an investigation, and as Chuck put it, “no matter what I did, I couldn’t change the way I was perceived”, they really couldn’t do anything but suffer the spectacle of their tragedy.

Suddenly they were the outsiders, our “homeboys”, a discovery Chuck makes through a local news channel’s reportage about a Pakistani man being deported, an eventuality created by the virtue of his being “at the wrong place, at the wrong time”. Eventually, we’d realize that so are these three men, when they seek out to Connecticut in search of their disappeared compatriot ‘the Shaman’. What takes-off from there is a tour through the police cars and Metropolitan Detention Centre, a tour which visits the cruelties – both physical and mental – inflicted by an insecure and angry administration, ironically even on its own citizens, merely because they shared the same skin colour and religion as the loonies who blew up the trade towers. All this is brilliantly pitched against the back-drop of a proclamation by the American president that “this will be an age of liberty”. And this tour ends at different destinations for each of our protagonists.
Places, where a few days before it all happened, they would have never thought they would end up in. Tragedies have a unique way of transporting you back to other tragedies you may have suffered, and we find that in his thoughts and dreams, Chuck keeps going back to his father’s death, probably the deep sense of loss connecting the two incidents. We also catch a glimpse of his life back in Karachi, and get introduced to his mother, a quietly graceful and yet so strong woman. And as we travel through Karachi’s streets, the South Asian reader will surely smile more than once, at familiar incidents such as the accident when Chuck was being given driving lessons by his mother. The author sketches a very poignant and emotionally alive story of Chuck’s growing up days, and it surely is one of the high points of this novel.

All of the above is, in any case, a heart-breaking story, and from any other author would still be a compelling read. It may even have been dealt in more political depth by Naqvi’s other compatriots. But what makes this work shine through the otherwise brilliant constellation of recent Pakistani prose, is the author’s narration. Or in other words, his language. Forgive me for saying it, but if Faiz would have ever recited at a slam poets’ club, this is how it would have read. It is absolute word-wizardry, a gazal written in slang, rap, hip-hop street lingo. Naqvi has a tremendous visual quality to his writing, and when you read this novel, you would often see it at the same time. And he has humour, a sharp, often dark way of making you laugh, and a wit which assures of the fact that this is one author you are sure to return to, as and when he decides to return to the bookshelves. Though this novel is a drive up the Webster-Google alley, so keep the internet handy. His style not only gives his literature its honesty and originality, but also a sense of immediacy and contemporariness. He always conveys a sense of tragedy or an impending one, throughout the pages, and you can really feel the fear and despair of the people in this story – he also manages to lend his characters a life, and you’d often feel either like them or knowing someone like them.

While the reader is busy enchanted by his magical weavings, chances are that he’d not even notice when Naqvi breaks a few ignorant stereotypes of Pakistani Muslims for us. While in old man Khan, we have a clear feminist; in Amo we have a woman who chooses the hijab as a sartorial weapon against the hypocrisy of sexual politics teenagers face. And while through Chuck’s getting “weirded out” by the same hijab, we realize that not all Muslims men are soldiering on for what we from the outside consider the ‘norm’, through AC’s words the author brings home the truth, that often even history attempts to cover, that Islam is a “violent and bastard religion”, as much as, say, “Christianity, Judaism, Hinduism”, and that men have “been killing and maiming in the name of God since the dawn of time”, even the ones who are quick to brand others’ religions as primitive and sinister. The author also points out that there are Muslim men, whose “Jihad” is to create “heaven on earth”, often by activities as benign as tending to flowers.

But for me the pinnacle of the entire argument lies wrapped in a neat paragraph tucked in the latter half of the book. While answering a question from his interviewer, an American gentleman, as to “how are things over there” in Pakistan, Chuck sums up what it has been ‘over there’ for the people who have been living there all these years of continuous strife of one kind or the other – “there’s a war on our border, again. There’ll be an exodus of refugees and fighters, again, an influx of drugs and arms. We’ve had a war on our border, on and off, for the last thirty years. We live in one of the toughest neighborhoods in the world: we’re bordered by Afghanistan on the north, a collection of warring fiefdoms, then there’s nuclear aspirant and fundamentalist Iran to the west, and on the east there’s India, a country with a million-man standing army. The United States is lucky that way. You’ve got Canada, Mexico and the sea.” Most of the world is lucky that way. As Pakistan becomes just a cog in the wheels of other more powerful nations’ political ambitions, it is her people who suffer at the hands of an unsympathetic world. If you don’t feel for Pakistan this way, begin to. If you still can’t, read “Home Boy”, it will make you to.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Book Review: Seasons of Flight

ARKESH AJAY | New Delhi , May 7, 2011 13:10

(This book review appeared in The Sunday Indian Magazine)
Author:Manjushree Thapa
Imprint: Viking
Publisher: Penguin India
Language: English
Binding: Hardback
Pages: 240
ISBN-10: 0670084388
ISBN-13: 978-0670084388

There is a clear sense of rising euphoria in literary circles about the growing South Asian voice in English literature. Not only is the South Asian style of prose a matter of interest, but also the themes that they concern themselves with; angst and anxieties that have been experienced by their respective countries, and sometimes by the entire subcontinent, in the past decade or so. If there has been one note to mute in this melody, it has been the absence of deserved excitement over works emerging from Nepal, echoing a similar quiet about this hill country when one compares it to the frenzy across the word over its two politically-more-relevant neighbours. No longer. As Manjushree Thapa, a Nepalese who has lived around the world, delivers yet another stellar work after Forget Kathmandu, in the form of Seasons of Flight- a brilliantly poetic and yet so contemporary tale of a young Nepali woman’s never ending journey in search of personal fulfillment.

Prema, a young woman who grew up in a village in the mountains of Nepal, travels to Kathmandu and then to a bazaar at the base of the hills, wins a green card in a lottery and takes flight to America, on a guarantee that life will become better. What exactly is she escaping- her country torn in the strife between Maoist insurgency and counter-insurgency or the demons that lay within her since her mother’s death in her childhood, or both- the discerning reader will surely ponder over. This journey, which forms the backbone of the entire investigation that the novel undertakes, is not just another incident in your oft-read immigrant-escaping-troubled-country novel. Nothing captures what lays at the very heart of this phenomenon better than the author’s own words- “For those who felt they were from a shabby third-world country, it was hard not to believe that life in a richer land was more- proper, solid”.

What follows is a meandering path of a woman’s self discovery, faced often by roadblocks of her own mind or beyond. Her tribulations, often quite comic, start with her name. Type the name ‘Prema’ in MS word, look at the suggestions that the software throws up, and you’ll have a faint idea. Equally difficult is to explain where Nepal is to a largely self-absorbed American: it oscillates from Naples to nipples, and is centered often at India by an exasperated Prema herself. She begins her American chapter like any typical immigrant- in the ghetto. But soon she breaks out of these vestiges of a life she has chosen to reject, and moves out into a house with two ‘American’ women. Her attempt to “reach America” takes her into an employment as the care-taker of an elderly woman; and the irony of the fact that she has left behind her own ageing father in Nepal is not lost on the reader. She encounters Luis, a very American man, and it leads her to a relationship she finds quite unique, very different from the unsaid one she had with Rajan back in Nepal, and one which she discovers almost as if it were a tutorial into American life.

Though the relationship does begin on expected lines, it soon breaks from a clichéd trajectory and explores far-away nooks of the minds and thoughts of both the people in it, at the same time being a study into the many aspects of America as we know it, or even the one we don’t. What results, however, in just more confusion for Prema, and though it seemingly answers her has-she-reached-America question, it brings her back to her original inquiry- finding herself, finding fulfillment. That makes her take flight again, till she finds the El Segundo butterfly, and which almost turns out to be like finding herself- in ways many more than one.

This journey, with its many destinations, would have been a compelling read nonetheless. But the devices Thapa employs in narrating it to us turns it into a compulsory read. The multiple parallels that she creates in Prema’s life in Nepal and in America brings alive wonderful debates not only about her personal life but also about the politics of Third World countries and the American play in almost all of them. We discover Guatemala through Prema, and contrast it with Nepal, study the varying roles of America in these countries’ sorrows, and arrive at a difficult question- why do they all seek refuge in America? The reader shall definitely find clues to that however unanswered question in the author’s words.
Then there are the extremely endearing appearances of the sub-continental English. There is the “atomatic garantee green card” which even after the correction to ‘automatic guarantee green card’ still puzzles as to why is this guarantee automatic. Then there is “different-different” for ‘varied’- a pointer to how the language alters as convenience of expressing yourself takes the front seat over propriety of its rules. Just counting a few.

There are also the symbolism- ammonites Prema inherits from her mother, the fossilised exoskeleton inside it making an obvious reference to Prema herself; or the games of chess Luis’s dad used to play; or the El Segundo butterfly, and its moments of calm between bursts of flutter.

Thapa doesn’t fail to point out that Nepal, or the Third World in general, is often nothing more than a picture postcard for the average American. However, the tone she takes doesn’t intend to belittle Americans for that. In fact, she respects the tribulations of their lives too, however, banal and shallow they may look when compared to those of, say, a Nepali or a Guatemalan. She uses the same brush to paint Luis’s search for something “elemental”, as she does for Prema’s searches. Peace is not only freedom from violence, but also a state of inner calm; and survival is not just physical but also metaphysical. How “normal” attains different meaning for different people and different countries.
However, what really makes Thapa remarkable is the feminism of her description of the protagonist. Not once do you find

Prema a figment from a patriarchal world. Here is a woman from a small village in the “misty hills” travelling the unknown corners of a man’s world, and not once is she portrayed as seeking a man for either protection or direction. She may be lost often, but is never afraid. And this feminism attains peak when Prema seeks physical fulfillment. Unapologetic. Both Prema and the words the author chooses to describe it all. The freshness and the maturity of this narration clearly points towards an author at complete command of her craft.
Through all these multiple layers and themes, one thing always remains. You can always smell the world Thapa inhabits, through her words. You sense Nepal’s melancholy and feel the emptiness of life torn by strife, and you also live the air-conditioned loneliness of Los Angeles. And this is the mark of an extraordinary author. You can otherwise, only imagine what passes upon an aging father whose one daughter stays away after she leaves “just like that” to join the Maoists, and the other, he has to ask to stay away so that she can lead a “complete life”. With Thapa around, you can actually feel it.